It has often be said that you can't teach an old dog new
tricks. I am not too sure if that is true. It is far more likely that us
"old dogs" sometimes are unconvinced that the new tricks really are
new or that they are really useful. However my problem is that I am forgetting
the old tricks I once knew. Let me give you two examples.
Weaving: I have been weaving throw rugs for a number of
years. The rugs are in fact one of my big money makers at the market. I can, I
thought, make them in my sleep. 18 or so months ago I made a few rugs and they
did not feel right - they felt too thin and flimsy. I couldn't figure out what
I was doing wrong. Last year I made a few more (I had a large stockpile so I
didn't need to do too many), and they too, were too thin. I spun the wool
thicker, I spun it thinner, I made it three ply as opposed to two ply, I
changed the size of my reed - nothing seemed to work. The only solution was to beat
the wool really hard after every pass. Weaving this way was noisy (which is a
problem in an apartment) and my loom was moving all over the floor.
A couple of weeks ago I decided to try again. I made one
little change in how I put the warp on the loom and the rugs are great! They
feel thicker and just more substantial although I have not used that much more
wool. It was such an obvious solution but it took 18 months of thinking about
it before I figured out where I had gone off track. I had forgotten what I use
to do. I didn't need a new trick - just needed to remember the old one.
Writing: Writing is hard for me - it always has been. I have
a hard time organizing my thoughts, my spelling is atrocious, my typing is
worse and I am far too inclined to wander down garden paths that are only
interesting to me. The last two months have been a challenge for me. It has
felt as if I have been spending far too much time writing. I write a paragraph,
then delete it and far too often I end up just throwing it away and starting
over. While I do not ever expect writing to be easy, it was getting just too
frustrating.
Then I realized that I was composing only on the typewriter.
That is not how I write. I need to jot down partially formed thoughts and
concepts on paper before they are gone, organize them and then type. I just
don't type fast enough to keep up with my thoughts. Scribbling down those loose
thoughts as they drift through my brain allows me to keep the ones that I like
and to scratch out the ones that I don't. And that allows me to stay on track. I
wrote all of my university papers including my thesis out by hand. Not every
word but the organization and structure was shaped on yellow lined paper. I
love using the computer but I had forgotten that for me, processing complex
thoughts is a two step process.
So while it may look as if this old dog is resistant to learning
new tricks - the truth of the matter is that I am just desperately trying to
hang on to the old ones.